Today when evaluating the actions of someone I know to be a negative presence in my life I started to consider why that was. Why would this person go out of their way to make things more difficult for not only me but others? Aren't there enough people trying to bring her down (even though that might be questionable) that she reconsider doing the same to others?
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I know that what comes out of her mouth more than likely is disingenuious. That there is a seperate motive that drives her. Hiding behind the guise of religion to justify or cloud her actions, then telling anyone who will listen that she is a support system for others and wants everyone to succeed. But really does everything in her power to do the exact opposite.
So, why does she do it? I can only come to one conclusion....FEAR. Fear that the fascade that she displays with be uncovered. The fogged up glass that will soon be rubbed clear and discovering something that she has yet to fully realize for herself. When you have confidence in your ability you do not pull other people down. You embrace their capabilites and wish them the best. If you are not confident your insides scream...If I cannot control the narrative or outcome then NO ONE will succeed !
Do you have someone if your life who does this to you? They started off representing themselves in a way that should have slapped you out of your dream saying....THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE! No one wants to go around thinking that others have ulterior motives (at least I don't), but the truth is....there are many who have just that.
How do you and I look for a way to combat this negatively which can prove daunting? If truth be told, it is an uphill battle for me. It takes all my strength to not wish that she has profoundly negative things happen in her life. In actuality, behind closed doors, there most likely already are. A happy person does not act this way. They are in denial of their true heart. This stops them from being what their potential beckons. Though I might feel the battle brusing I also feel pity for her. She does not see the light that resonates when you are truly generous in nature.
I will continue to work on myself and the energy I put out into the world. That I have more control over. In the meantime, I will display my thoughts via this blog. It is a way for others who might be going through the same thing to realize that...YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
Til next time,